Somewhere I Belong
My sister threw a truth bomb at me. It was unexpected - and that way it's blast was larger and I felt it more. "Eh bakit? Dito ba nakakaipon ka?" I was dumbfounded, I didn't know what to reply. It was a reality check and I was silent after it. But the silence was so loud, the ringing in my ears started and every relative thought and memory came flooding in like a tsunami. I was going to cry. Yes, I don't have stable job. I'm currently unemployed and not earning at the moment. Yes, I do not make the best decisions in life. I eat my feelings away. I ate 2 big bag of chips, one after the other while drinking iced cola. I'm really not sorry that I ate both of them. Yes, I can't fit in the car seat with the current seat belt. I'm huge. Too huge. I'm 145 kg this year. Which is sad. You'd think I'd lose weight because of the pandemic. But thank you for shattering the glass dome that was my comfort zone. I've been in here for the longest