How's Kikay

Heaven has a new angel today. It was unfortunate that she had been born as she had and in these circumstances. Her life would have been of suffering if prolonged ~ death was very welcome. And as I write this as a sort of prayer, I envy her minute stay that she would not know sadness, nor despair, nor guilt and is absolutely free of sin. God welcome her in your arms and let her light shine like hope as a new flame is from embers. May her departure inspire us in ways that would give our lives meaning.

I feel like my Mom is stressed (she does not show it) over the fact that Grandma only cares about Uncle. Despite all her work to caring for Grandma ~ paying for her utilities, buying her food, assisting her to the doctor, all the things a good daughter can do ~ Grandma only thinks about Uncle. Uncle served time for drug pushing and using 1 or 2 years back . Grandma bailed him out and has been living with Grandma ever since.  Grandma has Alzheimer's. It's not on the worse side yet but it's getting there. Before the lock down, whenever we go out with Grandma (sans Uncle, he never goes with us), all she thinks about is what she can bring home to Uncle or wonders if Uncle has eaten or where he could have gone for the day. This upsets me. Uncle is an adult close to his 60's. He can take care of himself. We know for a fact that Uncle is using again. His mood swings and speech indicate it very well. And living with Grandma who has Alzheimer's can get unnerving. ...

The world is on pause but life goes on.